Monday, July 25, 2011

Epilogue

I always enjoy reading epilogues at the end of my stories.  This is probably due to the fact I just hate to see a good story end.  I hang on to my characters for as long as I can.  Probably also why I enjoy very long series.....

So I have now been back in the United States for over a month.  My room is finally put back together (i.e. my clothes are finally in my closet and not still in my suitcases in the garage).  

Does it feel strange to be back in the U.S.?  
Yeah, sometimes.  

Do I miss Belize?
 Of course.  

Am I here to stay?
 Maybe. 

Those are only a few of the questions I get asked on a regular biases. Sadly there are no easy answers. It's hard for anyone to understand unless you have lived away from home like I have these past 10 months.  Your second home, regardless of where you were, will always be a part of you.  There are memories that only you hold, jokes only you understand.  Do you miss it? Of course.  Does that mean you are meant to go back? Maybe.  Then again maybe not. 

Sometimes the plan that God has for us is not always put before us on the table all at once.  We are given sneak peaks.  Like a puzzle we study the table for clues of where to go next, which piece goes were and with what.  

So please don't look at me strangely when you expect me to say "I'm happy I'm home" when somedays I'm not.  It's not a rejection of you but a side affects of the God given burden.  When God has called you to leave staying in your current location, regardless of the affections you have there, is not an option.  So while I may not know which path I'll go down next there WILL be a path.   

Is Hawaii considered the mission field? 
;-)




All four bags leaving Belize. ;-)